Tuesday, June 26, 2012


I think my mind has been trying to escape.

Lately I have noticed that lately I have been thinking a lot more about Texas and the people there. My family and friends. I don't know if it was because of my birthday that was this past Sunday or hormones or something, but I have had a lot on my mind lately.

My mother is always telling me to go and visit down there, since she is always coming up here. But financially it hasn't been possible for quite a few years. Especially now since we both started new jobs in the last 6 months. We are trying to keep up with bills and had tried to get a home equity loan to help pay for home improvements that have been needed, but unfortunately in this economy we weren't approved so, once again, home repairs have to wait.

It just makes me anxious sometimes. I feel so alone and confused at times. I know I'm not, but I know I close myself off to keep people from knowing. Everyone else has their own problems so I feel like why should I bother them with my own. Believe me most of the time I subscribe to my grandfather's saying "If you can fix it, fix it. If you can't don't worry about." But sometimes it just all bogs down on me and I becomes overcome with sad thoughts and emotions.

One of the main feelings is loneliness and a longing for the familiar. Despite having been living here for 10 years, there are so many times where I still feel like outsider, the outcast, separate from everyone else. I know sometimes I may seem arrogant or like a know it all, but instead of people taking the time to see through that and finding that I am actually pretty funny and incredibly loyal and helpful and willing to do just about anything for them, they just blow me off and ignore me.

Perhaps I am just too different for Pittsburgh, too resistant to the natural order of things here. Perhaps my personality is too strong. I don't know what it is. I know I don't agree with lots of things here. I'm not a Steeler or a Pirate fan. But hey, I am a HUGE Penguins fan. Where I come from, hockey is not even thought about, so hey, I whole-heartedly embraced that. And I have seen this city change soooo much in the 10 years I have lived here. But I don't know what it is.

I think I am starting to ramble.

Anyway, to get away from all these thoughts running through my head, I have been reading so much. Especially since I have found the Dark Hunter series by Sherilynn Kenyon. It's a huge series that I have become obsessed with reading all of.

It's a great series in the paranormal romance genre. Mixing Greek mythology with vampires and demons. Fun and sexy. It has obviously kept my attention all this time. Kenyon really has a way of grabbing your attention and holding it and making you care so much about her characters. And with so many books in the series, they almost become your friends who you cheer and cry for. I highly recommend it.

Sometimes we all need to escape all the things we worry about...perhaps this is just my way.

Book List

So I know a while ago I promised a list of the most recent books I had read since I had kind of gone crazy reading.

Here it is for everything read from May to now:
(Date is when I finished it)
May 1 - Fifth Shades of Grey - E. L. James
May 3 - The Winning Hand - Nora Roberts
May 4 - The Perfect Neighbor - Nora Roberts
May 8 - The Last Boyfriend - Nora Roberts
May 17 - Night Pleasure - Sherilynn Kenyon
May 19 - Night Embrace - Sherilyn Kenyon
May 21 - Fantasy Lover - Sherilynn Kenyon
May 23 - Dance With The Devil - Sherilynn Kenyon
May 26 - Fifty Shades Darker - E. L. James
May 28 - Fifth Shades Freed - E. L. James
May 29 - Kiss of the Night - Sherilynn Kenyon
May 30 - Seize the Night - Sherilynn Kenyon
May 31 - Sins of the Night - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 3 - Captivated - Nora Roberts
June 5 - Entranced - Nora Roberts
June 5 - Charmed - Nora Roberts
June 9 - Born of Silence - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 11 - Night Play - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 12 - Unleash the Night - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 13 - Dark Side of the Moon - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 15 - The Dream-Hunter - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 18 - Devil May Cry - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 19 - Upon The Midnight Clear - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 20 - Dream Chaser - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 23 - Acheron - Sherilynn Kenyon
June 24 - Bared to You - Sylvia Day
June 26 - One Silent Night - Sherilynn Kenyon

I know, a lot of books in a short amount of time...perhaps I have a problem....perhaps not.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


Lately I have been reading about the new Taco scene in Pittsburgh. And of course being Hispanic and having grown up eating everything Tex-Mex and Mexican, I begin to investigate.

I have been pretty disappointed. There is this movement to remake Mexican food. I hate it. What is wrong with traditional food? Most everything I find reminds me of California.

Plus it's almost impossible to find good Mexican Pan de Dulce (sweet bread). And no Pan de Dulce is not a specific pastry, it's any type of sweet pastry or bread found in a Mexican Bakery.

One of my favorite things is called a mollete ( moh-yeh-teh). Or some call it a concha because the pattern in the baked on frosting looks like the tip of a sea shell.

So I got it in my crazy brain to make some. I found what looked like a pretty reliable recipe online. Tonight I tried it. The frosting is dead-on, but the bread, while good, is no match to the breads from where I'm from.

There are the results: post and pre bake. (stupid program insists on publishing them in this order)

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Type, type, typing

So the writing bug has struck me again, hard. There are days when all I want to do is read and other days where all I want to do is write. It's a vicious cycle.

And I may have been wrong about my not reading a crap load of books again this month. It's the 5th and I have already read three. Even with my writing, I am still reading a lot.

There have been a few word blocks in my way, but right now, they just want to all tumble out to the point that my fingers are having a hard time keeping up. I get the words out on the screen, but the letters in them are all jumbled up. Like my brain is working fine, but my fingers have become dyslexic.

But I have been asked to give up the laptop for now. So I will go find a new book to read since I finished the last one on the way home from work.


Friday, June 1, 2012


I think my reading became an obsession during the month of May. With all that was going on, including a floral holiday (Mother's Day), Memorial Day and doing the normal day today stuffs, I managed to read 13 books and start another. Towards the end, I was reading 1 a day. And I managed to go to work, do work, get home, make dinner, play with the animals AND sleep.

This is a first for me in terms of the number of books. I am usually good for 4-6 a month. But this was crazy. I don't know if I will ever do that again.

Don't worry, I won't be extolling on them. Too many, and I don't know that I want to. I will, however, post a list of them.

My birthday is coming up this month. Yay me! I saw something on Facebook today that I want. It's pricey, but very cool!

Wigle Whiskey has a home aging kit for their white wheat whiskey. Hehehe, try saying that 3 times fast. There is a small and large kit. The small comes with a liter of white wheat whiskey (jeez, it's even hard to type fast), a small cask/barrel and a snifter for it. I know some people would be think that is just silly. But hey, I like it, I want it, so =P.

Anyway, this feels like its going to be a long weekend. I don't know why, but I just have that feeling.